My mind turns to mush! It speeds up and like a rewinding slideshow I am reminded of all the things that brought me here. There are so many reasons I became a doula. And the reasons why I initially became a doula are so different from why I am a doula today.
So I take a giant breath and I settle in to the truth. I feel it in my body before I speak the words. I tell them the biggest truth of it all. The one that hasn’t changed since I started this work.
“I really love women.” I tell them.
I love what women do, write, create, imagine, and become. I love when women are wild. When they are powerful. And when they are vulnerable. I became a doula to witness women doing the most womanly thing there is to do—that is, transform themselves into mothers.
I am a doula because my arms are so huge and so wide, so long and so sturdy, that they can wrap themselves up and around that woman and her birth team and just… hold them… until that transformation occurs. I won’t go anywhere. I won’t leave. I will watch you transform. When you say, “I can’t do this!” I tell you, “You are!” And it is true. No matter what the pain is, no matter how intense, how long, or how deep into the unknown you have lost or found yourself. . . you are becoming something new. “You are doing it.”
Look at you, woman! You are a mother now!
You are a Mother now.